Iโve been a lineman for Duke Energy for 23 years.
Iโve seen birds, kites, even a mannequin stuck in the wires.
But Iโve never seen this.
It was a Tuesday morning, around 6 AM.
I got called out to a rural stretch outside Waynesville for a reported outage.
Single farmhouse.
The lady on the phone said her power went out at exactly 3:17 AM.
She knew the time because her husbandโs oxygen machine alarm woke her up.
I pulled up in the bucket truck.
The sun was just starting to come up.
I could see the pole from the road.
There was something hanging from the cross-arm.
At first, I thought it was a garbage bag.
I raised the bucket.
Got closer.
It wasnโt a garbage bag.
It was a duffel bag.
Heavy-duty.
Military green.
Zip-tied to the neutral wire.
My stomach dropped.
You donโt just find a bag hanging 40 feet in the air by accident.
Someone climbed that pole.
Someone who knew what they were doing.
I radioed dispatch.
โYeah, Iโm gonna need the sheriff out here.โ
I kept the bucket up, waiting.
Thatโs when I saw it.
A white card.
Laminated.
Tied to the zipper with fishing line.
I leaned in close enough to read it.
It said: RANDY BUCKLEY โ OPEN ALONE.
Thatโs my name.
My hands started shaking.
Iโve never told anyone this, but fifteen years ago, I worked a side job.
Cash under the table.
A guy paid me $500 to โforgetโ I saw him climb a pole one night.
I needed the money.
My daughter was sick.
I looked the other way.
The guyโs name was Cole.
I never saw him again.
Until last year.
I was at a gas station, and I saw his face on the TV.
Heโd been arrested.
Drug trafficking.
They found bodies.
Twelve of them.
I unzipped the bag.
Inside was a single VHS tape.
No label.
Just a strip of masking tape with a date written in Sharpie: July 19, 2009.
That was the night I let him climb.
I looked down at the farmhouse.
The porch light was on.
An old woman stood in the doorway, staring up at me.
She wasnโt the one who called.
I checked my phone.
The work order said the callerโs name was Margaret Driscoll.
I looked at the mailbox at the end of the driveway.
It said COLE.
My blood ran cold.
The world went silent, just the hum of the transformer and the pounding in my ears.
I lowered the bucket, the heavy tape feeling like a brick in my hand.
The sheriffโs cruiser pulled up the long gravel drive just as my feet hit the ground.
Sheriff Miller got out, a man Iโd known for years.
โRandy,โ he said, adjusting his belt. โDispatch said you found something unusual.โ
His eyes went from me to the bag I now held, then up to the pole.
โUnusual doesnโt cover it, Bill,โ I said, my voice hoarse.
I held up the laminated card with my name on it.
He took it, his brow furrowing.
โSomeone left this for you?โ
I nodded, my throat too tight to speak.
I told him I found the bag, that it had my name on it.
I didnโt mention Cole.
I didnโt mention the five hundred dollars.
I left out the part about my past being tied to that bag with fishing line.
He took the duffel bag for evidence.
I didnโt tell him Iโd already opened it.
The VHS tape was hidden in the deep pocket of my work coat.
It felt like it was burning a hole right through the fabric.
โAnd the outage?โ Miller asked, looking toward the farmhouse.
โLooks like a squirrel trip at the fuse,โ I lied. โEasy fix.โ
It wasnโt a squirrel.
I could see from the ground that the cutout was manually opened.
Someone had shut the power off on purpose.
To get me out here.
Miller walked over to the porch, where the old woman was still standing like a statue.
I couldnโt hear what they were saying, but she just shook her head and went inside.
He came back to the truck.
โNameโs Elspeth Cole,โ he said. โLived here fifty years. Says she didnโt call it in. Husbandโs on oxygen, but she has a generator backup. Never even knew the power was out.โ
My heart hammered against my ribs.
โGuess it was a prank then,โ I said, trying to sound casual.
Miller didnโt look convinced.
โA prank that involves climbing a forty-foot utility pole? Iโll run the name on the mailbox. See what comes up.โ
He knew exactly what would come up.
He just wanted to see my reaction.
I nodded, got back in my truck, and fixed the โoutage.โ
As I drove away, I saw Elspeth Cole watching from her window.
The VHS tape in my pocket felt heavier with every mile.
I knew I couldnโt go home.
My wife, Sarah, would know something was wrong in a second.
And my daughter, Mariaโฆ she was twenty now, in college studying to be a nurse.
She was the reason I took that money.
To pay for a specialist when she was five.
I couldnโt let this touch them.
I drove to my dadโs old house.
He passed away two years ago, and I hadnโt had the heart to clear it out yet.
I knew he had an old TV with a VCR in the den.
The house was cold and smelled of dust and old memories.
I found the machine, hooked it up, and my hands trembled as I pushed the tape in.
The screen flickered to blue, then to static.
For a second, I thought it was a blank tape.
A cruel joke.
Then an image swam into view.
It was grainy, shot at night with a poor-quality camera.
The view was pointed at the base of a utility pole.
The very same pole I had just left.
I could see the Cole farmhouse in the background.
A younger Cole walked into the frame.
He wasnโt climbing.
He was digging.
He dug for what felt like an eternity, the only sound the scrape of the shovel against dirt and rock.
Then he pulled a metal box from the hole.
It was an old army ammunition can.
He opened it.
The camera zoomed in, but the quality was too poor to see what was inside.
He seemed to check the contents, then placed it back in the hole and covered it up.
He meticulously replaced the grass, making it look undisturbed.
Then he backed away, turning the camera on himself.
His face filled the screen.
He looked younger, but just as dangerous.
โJuly 19, 2009,โ he said into the camera. โThe linemanโs paid. He saw nothing.โ
A cold sweat broke out on my forehead.
He looked away from the camera as if listening to someone.
โYeah, itโs done,โ he said. โThe insurance is in the ground. If anything happens to me, you know where to look.โ
He paused, a cruel smile playing on his lips.
โAnd donโt worry about our friend inside. Heโs taken care of. Permanently.โ
He gestured with his head toward the farmhouse.
My stomach churned.
Mr. Cole.
The husband on the oxygen machine.
But Sheriff Miller said he was alive.
Then I realized.
This was fifteen years ago.
This must have been Elspethโs first husband.
Cole wasnโt just a drug trafficker.
Heโd started his career as a killer right here.
And I helped him get away with it.
The tape ended.
I sat there in the silence of my fatherโs house, the ghost of that night replaying in my mind.
This wasnโt just about a bribe anymore.
This was about murder.
And whatever was in that box was the key.
Cole, sitting in a prison cell, had just made me the keeper of his darkest secret.
But why?
Was he trying to get me to dig it up?
Was he setting me up to take the fall for him?
I spent the rest of the day in a daze.
I knew I couldnโt go to the sheriff.
Not Bill Miller.
Cole had a partner, someone he trusted with this information.
In a town this small, it could be anyone.
That night, I drove back out to the Cole farm.
I parked my personal truck a half-mile down the road and walked through the fields.
The house was dark except for a single light in an upstairs window.
I found the pole.
Using the tape as a mental map, I paced out the steps from the base.
Right where a large oak treeโs shadow would fall at noon.
I brought a small garden spade from my dadโs shed.
I started to dig.
The ground was soft.
It didnโt take long before the spade hit something with a dull thud.
It was the ammunition can.
Rust had crept along its edges, but the seal was still tight.
I pried it open.
There was no money.
No drugs.
Inside was a leather-bound ledger.
And a small, tarnished silver locket.
I opened the locket.
Inside was a faded picture of a young woman I didnโt recognize.
I opened the ledger.
It was filled with dates, names, and dollar amounts.
It was a record of payments.
Bribes.
I saw the names of truckers, warehouse foremen, and then, my blood froze.
I saw a recurring entry.
โJM.โ
Next to it were figures in the tens of thousands.
And dates that corresponded with major drug busts in the region where the evidence conveniently went โmissing.โ
JM.
My mind raced through everyone I knew in local law enforcement and government.
And then it hit me.
Jonathan Mercer.
Our current District Attorney.
The man who was prosecuting Coleโs case with a righteous fury that had everyone in the state talking about his bright political future.
The man who had built his career on being tough on crime.
He was Coleโs partner.
This whole thingโฆ Coleโs arrest, the big show of a trialโฆ it was all a setup.
Mercer was cleaning house, getting rid of his old partner to cover his tracks.
Cole knew it.
And this box was his revenge.
He couldnโt get the information out himself.
But he knew an old lineman with a guilty conscience who could.
I put everything back in the box and carried it back to my truck.
I felt like I was holding a bomb.
If I went to the local authorities, Mercer would bury me.
Heโd use the bribe from fifteen years ago to discredit me, to paint me as one of Coleโs accomplices.
I had only one choice.
The next morning, I called in sick.
I drove two hours to the state capital, to the FBI field office.
I sat in a sterile interrogation room with two agents who looked at me with polite suspicion.
I put the ammo can on the table.
Then I put the VHS tape next to it.
โMy name is Randy Buckley,โ I said, my voice steady for the first time in days. โAnd I have a story to tell you. It starts fifteen years ago, with five hundred dollars in cash.โ
I told them everything.
The bribe.
My sick daughter.
The bag on the power line.
The tape.
The ledger.
When I was done, the room was silent.
One agent picked up the silver locket and studied it.
โThis belonged to an informant,โ he said quietly. โCarla Rivas. She disappeared sixteen years ago. Her body was one of the twelve they found on Coleโs property.โ
He looked at me. โMercer was her handler at the time. He closed her case, said sheโd probably run off.โ
In that moment, the whole disgusting picture became clear.
Mercer had been dirty from the start.
The weeks that followed were a blur of secret meetings and signed depositions.
I felt a strange sense of peace.
The guilt that had been a low hum in the back of my mind for fifteen years was finally gone.
I had told the truth.
Whatever happened next, happened.
Then the news broke.
District Attorney Jonathan Mercer was arrested in his office.
The state was reeling from the corruption scandal.
Coleโs testimony, combined with the evidence from the box, had brought it all down.
He got his sentence reduced, but he would still spend most of his life behind bars.
He had used me, but in the end, heโd aimed me at the right target.
I had to face a hearing for my own part in it.
I stood before a judge, ready to accept my punishment.
But because of my full cooperation, I was given two years of probation.
I didnโt lose my job.
The last piece of business was a visit.
I drove out to the farmhouse one last time.
Elspeth Cole was sitting on her porch swing.
She looked up as I approached.
โI saw the news,โ she said.
โIโm sorry for your son,โ I said. โAnd for my part in all of it.โ
She nodded slowly, her eyes looking out over the fields.
โMy first husbandโฆ his name was Arthur,โ she said. โHe was a good man. But he learned about what Cole and that other man were doing. He was going to go to the police.โ
She looked at me, her eyes filled with a sadness that was decades old.
โI always knew it wasnโt an accident. I just didnโt know how to prove it. Now, at least thereโs a kind of peace.โ
We sat in silence for a while, two people bound by a secret buried under a power line.
Driving home, I felt the sun on my face.
Itโs funny how a single choice, a single moment of weakness, can echo through your life for years.
It becomes a part of you, a heavy coat you wear every day.
You get so used to the weight, you forget what it feels like to stand up straight.
For fifteen years, I carried that secret.
But it turns out the only thing heavier than the lie is the time you waste not telling the truth.
Clearing your conscience isnโt about being forgiven by others.
Itโs about finally being able to forgive yourself.





