The Name I Gave Away

Iโ€™ve always liked the name Victoria, and Iโ€™d often tell my family that Iโ€™d name my daughter that. My sister recently gave birth and we were celebrating. I nearly cried when she said the name was Victoria. She giggled and said it just felt right, and that I didnโ€™t mind sharing the name, right?

I smiled, nodded, and hugged her, but deep down, something twinged. Not anger exactlyโ€”more like surprise mixed with a drop of disappointment. Iโ€™d talked about that name since we were teenagers. Everyone knew Iโ€™d wanted it for my future daughter. But now, it was taken. Just like that.

The living room was filled with laughter and gifts. Baby Victoria was passed from arm to arm, wrapped like a little star in a pink blanket. I held her too, and Iโ€™ll admit, the name suited her. Still, that didnโ€™t make it sting any less.

I didnโ€™t bring it up. What would be the point? She looked so happy, and the last thing I wanted was to make the day about me. So I swallowed my feelings and carried on like everything was fine.

A few days later, over coffee, my mom asked gently, โ€œDid it bother you? That your sister used the name?โ€

I shrugged. โ€œA little. But what can you do? Itโ€™s not like I own it.โ€

Mom gave me that knowing look only moms can give. โ€œSometimes, the things we let go come back around in different ways.โ€

I didnโ€™t think much of it at the time. Just one of those vague comforting things parents say. But she wasnโ€™t wrong. Not at all.

Life moved forward. I was single at the time, 29, working as a receptionist at a dental clinic. I liked my job well enough. Small office, nice people. But it wasnโ€™t the life Iโ€™d always imagined. You know the oneโ€”the husband, the house with the porch, maybe two kids, Sunday mornings with pancakes and cartoons.

I hadnโ€™t given up, not completely. But Iโ€™d stopped planning. I figured life would do what it wanted with me, whether I liked it or not.

Then came Mark.

He wasnโ€™t flashy or particularly charming at first. He came in as a patient, actually. Cracked molar. I remember him wincing and cracking jokes through the pain. After his appointment, he lingered at the counter a little longer than usual. I knew what was coming before he even said it.

โ€œHey, uh, if this isnโ€™t wildly inappropriate, can I take you out for coffee sometime?โ€

It wasnโ€™t the first time a patient had asked, but there was something different about him. Kind eyes. He didnโ€™t seem to be playing a game.

I said yes.

The next few months felt like a quiet breeze. Nothing dramatic. No fireworks. Just slow, steady comfort. We talked about everythingโ€”our childhoods, our fears, what we wanted and didnโ€™t want from life.

I told him about the name Victoria once. I didnโ€™t make a big deal of it, just mentioned that Iโ€™d always loved it. He listened, nodded, and tucked the information away like it mattered.

Fast forward two years.

We got married in a small ceremony. Just close friends and family, backyard style. Nothing extravagant. My sister brought little Victoria, now a feisty toddler with curly hair and a giggle that could melt steel.

I still loved the name. Every time I heard it, I smiled. But Iโ€™d also made peace with the fact that it belonged to someone else now.

A year later, we decided to try for a baby.

It wasnโ€™t easy. Months passed. Then a year. Doctor visits, tests, uncomfortable silences. The results came back: low fertility on both sides. Not impossible, just difficult. The kind of difficult that doesnโ€™t come with guarantees.

We tried for another year, then another. Friends around us were announcing pregnancies like it was the easiest thing in the world. Baby showers. Gender reveals. I started avoiding Instagram on weekends.

Eventually, we stopped talking about it. Not because weโ€™d given up, but because it hurt less to stay silent.

Then one evening, out of nowhere, Mark said, โ€œHave you ever thought about adoption?โ€

I had. Quietly. Secretly. But Iโ€™d never brought it up.

We started looking into it. Long process, paperwork, home studies, waiting lists. So much waiting. It felt like we were standing in line behind a thousand people with shinier rรฉsumรฉs.

One afternoon, as we were cleaning out the guest room, turning it into a maybe-one-day nursery, I found an old notebook from college. Iโ€™d written lists of baby names, possible future addresses, even sketched out room designs for a little girl.

Victoria was circled in bold. Twice.

I paused, staring at the page. It was weird. It didnโ€™t sting anymore. It just feltโ€ฆ distant. Like an old dream that had belonged to a different version of me.

A few months later, we got a call.

A birth mother had picked us. She was 18, scared, and wanted to meet.

We were nervous. We met at a neutral spotโ€”a little community center where she was receiving counseling. Her name was Dani.

She was quiet, guarded. She didnโ€™t want to know too much about us. Just enough. She told us about her pregnancy, about how the father was long gone, and how she didnโ€™t feel ready.

Then she said something that stuck with me forever.

โ€œI donโ€™t want her to feel like a mistake. I want her to go to someone who wanted her, even before they knew her.โ€

I felt the tears build, but I held them back. Mark reached for my hand under the table.

Two months later, we were in the hospital waiting room while Dani was in labor. It was surreal. Like waiting for a miracle you werenโ€™t sure you deserved.

When the nurse came out and said, โ€œSheโ€™s here,โ€ I nearly collapsed.

They let us hold her after Dani did. She was tiny, wrinkled, red-faced, and perfect.

I looked at Mark and whispered, โ€œWhat do we call her?โ€

He smiled. โ€œNot Victoria.โ€

I laughed through the tears. โ€œNo. Not Victoria.โ€

We named her June. It was the month she was born, but also, somehow, it just felt right.

A soft name. A hopeful name. A name that didnโ€™t belong to the past.

We brought June home a few days later. The first few weeks were a blurโ€”diapers, bottles, no sleep, tiny socks getting lost in the dryer.

But there was also peace. That quiet kind of joy that doesnโ€™t shout, but hums gently in your chest.

One weekend, my sister came over with Victoria, who was now five and full of stories.

They played on the floor with Juneโ€™s toys, and I watched them from the couch. Two girls, two names, two completely different paths that had somehow led to the same living room.

My sister hugged me before she left and said, โ€œYou know, I never asked you properly. About the name. I just assumed.โ€

I smiled. โ€œItโ€™s okay. It really is. I wouldnโ€™t change a thing.โ€

She looked down at June in her crib. โ€œI think she got the better name, anyway.โ€

Years passed.

June grew into a curious, wild-haired girl who loved animals and hated carrots. She had this habit of singing nonsense songs while brushing her teeth, which drove Mark crazy and made me laugh every time.

One night, while tucking her in, she asked, โ€œMommy, where did my name come from?โ€

I told her. About June the month. About the feeling of sunshine and new beginnings.

She nodded thoughtfully. โ€œI like it. Itโ€™s soft.โ€

That night, after she fell asleep, I sat alone for a bit, just thinking.

Life doesnโ€™t always give you what you ask for. Sometimes it gives you what you didnโ€™t even know you needed.

I thought Iโ€™d lost something when I gave up the name Victoria. But what I got in return was far greater.

And that name? Itโ€™s now part of my nieceโ€™s laughter, her drawings on my fridge, her sleepy hugs when she visits. I didnโ€™t lose it. I just passed it on.

Funny thing is, a few years later, something unexpected happened.

Dani reached out.

Not to reclaim, not to intrude. Just a letter. Sheโ€™d gone back to school, was doing well, and wanted to say thank youโ€”for loving her daughter the way she couldnโ€™t at the time.

She included a photo of herself at her graduation. She looked proud. Strong.

I wrote her back. Told her about Juneโ€™s love for frogs and how she still refused to eat carrots.

We started exchanging letters now and then. Carefully. Respectfully.

When June turned ten, we sat her down and told her the full story. About Dani. About adoption.

She listened quietly, then asked, โ€œCan I write her a letter too?โ€

I nodded.

That first letter was clumsy and full of misspelled words. But it was also full of love.

Now they write each other every few months. June calls her Dani, not mom. Thereโ€™s no confusion, no jealousy. Just connection. Another root in her story.

And somehow, I knowโ€”deep in my chestโ€”that this is the life I was always meant to live.

So, hereโ€™s what Iโ€™ve learned:

Sometimes, we hold onto dreams so tightly that we forget to make space for the better things trying to reach us.

Let go of what doesnโ€™t fit anymore. Make peace with the curveballs. Trust that life has its own way of rewarding quiet patience.

Because when the time is right, the right things come. And they donโ€™t always come with the name you expected.

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